So, I'm sure none of you are ever fearful...never concerned with the "what ifs", ...fearful of failure... or even fearful of success?
Well, I have been at an impasse lately in my forward momentum. Lots of changes this past year - empty nest, being in Weight Watchers, and deciding to pursue photography more aggressively and everything that comes with that. But it just seems like everything has stalled for the past few months, and I have been trying to figure out why. I have gained weight in the past few months despite attending Weight Watchers regularly. I have had very few photo sessions or sales. I am learning Photoshop and Lightroom, but not as aggressively as early on. And I procrastinate as much as is humanly possible in my other work.
Several different things over the week-end have lit up the light-bulb in my brain. I am afraid. Now those of you who know me personally know that I do not come across as a fearful person. I speak in front of others with no problems, and I'm not afraid to speak my mind. But for some reason, I am afraid of success. Who knew? Certainly not me!
SO...now that I am aware of the issue, I can deal with it. And I am. I actually posted pricing on my FB page, which has been a huge deal for me, to actually have real prices. I am dealing with finalizing the paperwork to be a real business, which has been procrastinated on for far too long. I will be ordering new business cards - that I actually like! And handing them out...! I will figure out how to balance my focus between everything, including my eating...I really want to be able to hike to the tops of mountains (or at least big hills) without having a heart attack, and take amazing pictures from up there! So...I might still be afraid, but I will not let it stand in the way of me doing what I like! My daughter posted a little movie short this morning with the message - Scared is scared of what you like. So, I will focus on what I LIKE, not what I am scared of.
And now that you know... feel free to ask about it!