Continuing on the theme of my blog yesterday -
Recognizing that I seem to be afraid of success made me look closer at what exactly makes success a scary thing. And my conclusion is, it is change. Maybe more change than I was ready to have happen last year.
The changes that occurred over the past year were already quite substantial on their own.
Being a mom for 20 years and now not having to worry about anyone except my husband (who does NOT want me to worry about him) is a big difference for me. I would not call myself a helicopter mom, but I am interested in what's going on in my kids' lives and I spent time driving them where they needed to go.
I was starting to notice my weight loss more and so were other people...did I really want that attention?
My mom has been sick with stupid ovarian cancer...watching her deal with that has been hard.
Jumping into photography seemed right at the time...interest was building and I had some extra time and money.
Maybe it was just all a little overwhelming when it was all put together. So I just backed away a little from everything.
But I am getting more comfortable with the whole empty nest thing, and I am getting more and more confident with my photography skills. I think I could handle a little more change.
I think it is just time to regather myself and move forward...set some goals, break them into smaller goals, and just do it!
Thanks for reading! And if you are wanting to check out my pictures, please do so! My blog is attached to my website with a lot of my best pictures for sale.